I’m basically a positive person, quite optimistic. My theme song is the recently deceased Austrian singer Udo Jürgen’s Immer immer wieder geht die Sonne auf – always, always again rises the sun. And the Fleetwood Mac hit, Don’t stop thinking about tomorrow, yesterday’s gone, yesterday’s gone.  I’m good at giving people and also to myself pep talk. Whenever I feel down and out, I prop myself up. Pat myself on the back.  Tell myself, it will be better.  Something positive will happen.  Soon! Soon when?  Wasn’t eight years more than enough time?

Perhaps time had come for me to move on and away. I would never have friends and the people close to me the way I did in other countries I had lived in. This of course was quite depressing. It was getting harder and harder to pump myself up, to refuel and crank up the motor.

That morning, like many others, I woke up feeling somewhat to quite depressed.  And when it got me down too far, I thought of the dead Wandering Jew in my office and then looked at the sprouting leaves of the baby palm in my apartment. I knew, you never give up, because ironically, as the Czech saying goes: naděje umírá poslední – hope dies last.

© Haresh Shah 2015

Illustration: Celia Rose Marks

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